Monday Ponderings

I have survived another crazy weekend where I again, thought I was "superwoman"!  I am thankful to be at home today catching up on some MUCH NEEDED housework.  I thought I would take a break and blog a bit!  

I guess I consider today to be "down time" sort of.  Even though I am home doing housework, it is quiet (my kids are at my Mom and Dad's) and I have some time to let my mind slip into neutral (as opposed to overdrive most days) (and I keep adding parenthesis because I am thinking and typing my interjections at the same time which could get REALLY dangerous)!  And if you don't know me very well, if I don't write something down, it may not recycle in my brain for another 6 months or longer!  Anyway, on to my pondering of the morning!

I'm so thankful God DOESN'T answer every prayer I have!  I am thankful He knows what is best for me at the time because I would surely of made an embarrassment of myself had I plowed right on with MY desires!  Several years ago, I thought I might enjoy speaking in church.  I was very involved in church, Sunday school, women's Bible study and other ministries.  I thought I had what it took to "deliver a message" but looking back now, I realize I didn't!  It is un-telling what might have come out of my mouth because at that time, my walk with God was not mature enough to deliver a message to others.  Yes, I was studying, praying, talking, etc., but I wasn't LISTENING to Him!  I was too busy with MY plans.  I hadn't made Him a priority in my life at that time.  Yes, I loved Him, but I think I was just going through the motions of "being a Christian".  I was living out Hebrews 5:12 and needing milk because I wasn't ready to "chew the meat"!

I'm not where I want to be in my faith journey, but I'm thankful I'm not where I use to be.  I think so many times we get complacent with our faith and study of God's Word but there is so much more that He wants to reveal to us!  I think it's neat how we can read a piece of scripture one time and jot down what God is speaking to us and then the next time we stumble across it, we get a new revelation!  He is just cool like that!

Anyway, it has taken much time with God to build my knowledge and understanding of Him.  And just this morning, I was thinking back over the last couple of years how He has led me to speak to others through speaking engagements, small group Bible study, social networks and even blogs!  I was "speaking" without even really realizing I was speaking.  You see, He gives us our hearts desires, not in OUR time, but His time!  

So if there is something you have been desiring or praying for, don't think God isn't going to answer it, for He knows best.  It might take some time for Him to develop you so you can handle His plan!  And, if it is something that will do you harm, He might not answer it but thank Him for looking out for your best interests!